Grrrrrrr!

I have just spent half an hour writing my first blog for ages only to be told there is an error and my text has disappeared!!!!
Am not going to try and re-hash it but will precis it as follows:
Everything feels as if it's out of control, life is full of uncertainty;
my children's' futures are not just uncertain because of the current lunacy
but their lives are in the hands of others.( I get on my knees, on a big foam pillow to pray
deeply but it doesn't completely remove the pain in my joints.) They can have my life to secure a safe future for them and their children, Anything.

More immediately, my life is going to become more demanding and hectic and it will be a test and challenge so let's hope I can rise to said challenge. And despite the economic maelstrom my finances seem to be healthier than ever before - it can't last, that would run completely contrary to my life.
So while on one hand I am drifting and eddying, fretting and full of angst, one area of worry has abated. Do you think Lord, that just for once we could have a plateau please?
Of course the truth is that life is a paradox and there is no earthly or heavenly reason why it should be settled and predictable and if it was I would soon be bored - it's just an indicator of my perversity. Don't take any notice, no one normally does so why change the habit of a lifetime!

new year, new promises, to break....

So here we go again, dear Blog, I make another attempt to keep you going.
My excuse for neglecting you, and I'm sticking to it, is that actually I have a lot of other things to do and I won't bore you with the details.
I am now official sock and mitten knitter to 2 princesses, who are very demanding.
In between that I am making changes to my sitting room - why does it take less time to put everything back on shelves than it does to take it off? It seems the more I clear out the more appears - it's breeding in secret places!
I have managed to prise the carpet shampooer back from my offspring so the next task will be to use it - sometime.