Monday, 31 January 2011

So we keep trying

The month has flown, been and gone,
and My Dear Blog I haven't visited you.
So today, which hasn't perhaps been
particularly exciting, I sit here in my corner
watching the sunshine and fighter jets
going over, and determine to write,
even if only a few lines.

My mind drifts back to the early morning
promenade by four cock pheasants in
the adjoining field.
Ambling and pecking,
aimlessly wandering,
until Number One decides to sit in a furrow,
Number Two slowly circling him,
while Three and Four suddenly break into
a run and make for the hedge.
Through them all, like a bowling ball aimed
at skittles, boldly bounces a hare, bolting.
Number one gets up, breaks into that man-run
thing which fizzles out into a casual stroll of
no fixed purpose
A chinless wonder who either doesn't know
what to do next
Or
wants it to seem like something else.

Thursday, 30 December 2010

Another Resolution


Here we are again, Dear Blog, at the end,
And beginning, of another year,
Ready to make a new commitment to each other.

My head is telling me that if I were a serious writer
It wouldn't be necessary to keep resolving,
To keep saying "This time, come hell or high water..."
You and I both know that truthfully if I hit a snag
Or my stress levels go through the roof,
Paralysis sets in and writing is the last thing
I am capable of.

However, one can't give up hope
And so again I promise to keep you company
On a regular basis, with my unimportant thoughts.

Tuesday, 14 December 2010

Winter in the drove

Dawn light comes muffled,
cloying and lilac tinged
with a chill edge.
There are chevrons of beating wings
above blanketed fields,
Rippled clouds like sand
as the tide recedes.
Ebb and flow of dawn mist
making remoteness more so.

Pheasants strut,
confront each other,
feathers erect.
Spar, circle combatively, play act,
then retreat,amiably,
back to their bush together.
Today's performance complete.

There's a tree,
by my bedroom window,
without a straight line,
twisted and gnarled.
It's foliage bends and hangs
like feather boas.

At the top is an
inescapable shape made
by a clump of boa-like
twisting,forking limbs.
It forms a silhouette
of a 50s "New Look" model,
haughty,nose in the air,
however much the wind blows.
Her hat a "Moulin Rouge" headdress,
breeze ruffled, arched swan's neck
atop a stick body, thin,swathed in
moulting foliage.

Veins of filigree twigs criss cross
the alabaster skin sky.
Twisted aorta forks, branches
to capillaries.
An armature stripped back.
Still proud and elegant.

Hares bounce boldly,
with invisible pursuers.
No hiding place until their coats change.
Against the white canvas the
secret world of hedgerows
and acres revealed.

Low morning sun emphasizes
furrows old and new.
Undulations of the past revealed
and the model's hat is
ermine edged.

I struggle with mine and
everyone else's anxiety.
The ice in my fingertips reflecting
arctic chill in head and heart.
I'm wanting to hide again,
frozen by fear,
not acting on my own advice,
afraid for the future.
Not living by my creed,
ashamed, guilty, powerless,
alone, inadequate.


Sunday, 28 November 2010

Response to "Shadow Play"

Gentle understatement,
Haunting Bartok,
Silhouettes in slow motion.
Rebuilt Chain Bridge,
Testimony to renewal.

Shadow feet walks city street,
To haunting boots, shoes,
At river's edge,
Tramp to oblivion,
Memorial to an obscene last act
by Danube's chill waters,
An end and beginning.
Deeply ironic resurrection,
Of those whose elimination took them
into the water-of-life for the perpetrators.
(or: from death to life-giving
in the enemy's midst.)

Poet with his life reduced
To darkness, certain death,
Still wrote verses on scraps
Shoved in his pocket.
Future exhumation made them
Identifiers after his disintegration.
Immortalised in words and bronze.

Statues transmuted from oppression,
Super-human inaccessibility,
To relaxed, human proportions.
Powerful in their informality,
None-threatening but always challenging.

Edward Petherbridge's Budapest.
An iphone production of montage,
Shadows and ripples.
Gentle voice alliterating,
Rhythmically playing with
Language, light.
Expanding pathos, drama.
Exposing fundamental paradoxes.

Another moving, revelatory gem.
New technology performance art
Provoking irresistible response.

Sunday, 21 November 2010

Saturday, 20 November 2010

Almost Soho


Once the decision was made that we couldn't go on
and get into Soho, which like Brigadoon seemed
to have become an illusion with all roads closed
into the enclave due to the Lord Mayor's Show,
we would people watch, take photographs,
comment, sometimes waspishly,
on the passing scene.
I'd missed the meeting despite being in London a
good one and a half hours before starting time.
My stress levels were through the roof with
exasperation.
After an hour in static traffic on London Bridge,
with an effort the levels subsided and I
succumbed to sense, deciding to make the
best we could of the situation.

Looking beyond the cones and no entry signs,
we glimpsed portly men in antique uniforms
raggedly making their way back to wherever
their incongruous transport was parked.
Standing at a bus stop, an Air Cadet with
cymbals clasped under his armpit,
hands still white gloved and pristine,
making his way home.
Theatre and the prosaic meeting.


At 3.30pm as we waited in more grid locked
traffic, a figure lurched to a standstill, at a corner,
steadied himself and his can of Special Brew
against a wall, and surveyed the scene,
taking stock through eyes, that even at a
distance, looked unfocused.
It was a rubbery,Hogarthian countenance,
and equally booze soaked.
The camera clicked randomly and with
my usual abandon, hoping that out of
the indiscriminate might come something
interesting.
Like the figure sitting by the roadside,
hood up, eyeing passers by and, surprised,
acknowledging the lone donation dropped
onto his blanket.
In the viewer the figure was blurred,
all the focus on the outline of wing mirror
and car window sill.
I was going to discard it when No.1 son
stopped me and saw potential.
"Do we really see the homeless?"
The picture spoke and remained.

Stepping out of a taxi an African woman
stopped to look about her before ascending
a flight of stairs to her maisonette.
A cloud of silver tissue gracefully swathed,
folds draped, crisply angled at the shoulders,
a toque pleated into a cockade.
Lusciously exotic against a seedy,limp
background.

Another episode of gridlock gave me
the opportunity to snap boys on bikes,
casually gliding in decreasing circles,
then suddenly pirouetting,
with rising back wheels,
weaving in, out, of columns and
each other.

In an unchoreographed barn dance,
people advanced, retreated, with
suppressed hysteria into and out of
tube stations.
They sashayed out into the road making
for the safety of the isles at the base of
traffic lights.
Making shapes where real life lies.
Crawling in traffic gives time to look
down alleyways and glimpse
another London, and dimension,
behind the hi tech facades.

Monday, 1 November 2010

Fenland Samhain

As day fades,
Sun makes one last entrance,
diffuse cascade of gold poured over
the horizon.
Long rows of trees stream
to the vanishing point.
Distant buildings in this
flat landscape,
dwarfed
by the sky,
forcing eyes upward,
to a varied cloudscape.

Veiled flame-clouds fill
two thirds of the windscreen,
enveloping mist gives the air a pink-grey haze.
Trees, a palette of umber,ochre,
terracotta, russet.
Long fields dry but striated
by dark, loamish slashes.
Parapets of cumulus rise
threatening rain.

In muted tones earth-life,
slows,
cryogenic.
A slow throb holding the spark
as it renews, garners strength and power.
Fusion rolls, compounds secret stockpiles
until the Sun returns,
A high Gloria unveiled.

Droves, cuts, are calm,
sluice gates stand raised.
Churches, chapels, in field corners,
marooned,
sentinels of a once new order.
Hills of mangold wurzels
undulate.
All transmuted
by Autumn's chill breath.
Shrouded shapes coalesce.
Copses rise crannog-like,
above a meniscus of mist.

All Hallows Eve
an attempt to reconcile
what?
Threads of both old and new,
unbroken, bloodied, but unshaken,
Its fulcrum - the Sun Son.

Cloudscape,
above,
of a parallel dimension.
Buildings,
below,
isolated, square,
austerely dark except for a dull glow
in the endmost top window
intrigues.
Aren't they afraid to move so far
from a comforting hearth-side?

Eye, Walsoken,
etymology
connecting us with our past.
Flag Fen, the Iceni,
hidden,
still faintly pulsing,
their DNA entwined with ours.
Samhain-All Hallows
reminds us of part
of helix at our fundus.

Tomorrow the mantle changes,
seemingly.
Warp to weft.
Thread of the future that help us face,
overcome,
winter's soul demands.
The chthonic,not necessarily
detrimental,
reminds that in frailty, arrogance,
ignorance,
we still need the earth,
we are more than flesh.
Rationale is suspended;
for one night
we nod to an olden time,
invisible world reinforcing its reality.

I like night driving.
Light changes
perspectives,
removes details, reveals basics.
Silhouettes,
untrammelled.
Lighted ribbon way speeds,
dull glow behind treed roads,
signals humanity,
at a distance,
where,sometimes, it should be.

At night,
in Fenland, earth has
pre-eminence.
Humans are
marginalised,
other creatures reign,
things closer to God.

My Autumn is now.
If I am wise I will
reconnect
with the basics.
Ditch flim-flam,
remove deadwood
that I might,
at last,
see the trees.